Wednesday, August 4, 2010


So after a conversation with Nathan, I realized something: Esrov is an antihero.

Did I do this on purpose? Well, yes, sort of, though I didn’t realize what I was doing until Nathan pointed it out to me yesterday. I had no idea I was writing for an antihero. No wonder this book is giving me so many problems. :O

Meanwhile I’m worried my character isn’t being proactive enough and that he’s too emotionally damaged. These are things I won’t know much about until I get the 411 from my alpha readers, and I won’t send TR to alpha readers for a long while.

On another note, I passed the 50% mark on this book, which is good. Except I have less than two months to finish it! My deadline is October 1. (When did I start this, again? I think it was three months ago.) So I’ve written half a book in three months. And I have to write another half in two.

….I can do it, I’m not too worried. I’ll just bring my laptop with me on my honeymoon!*

Random: Fighter by Christina Aguilera is such a good song. I want to base a character off of it. Except I have a problem of emasculating my female characters. Which is funny, if you think about it. I dunno. I find them more interesting than feminine characters….

[Crappy] Excerpt of the day:
“Your face has been engrained in my mind since you came to my study to save us from the bandits,” said Victor. “I knew our kindred lights would guide us to you.”
The Raimos, chapter 25

*Is this a bad idea? Hold on, Darling! Let me just kill this guy and I’ll be right to bed!


  1. Uh, yeah. Bringing your laptop on your honeymoon is definitely a bad idea.

    And how exactly do you emasculate a female character?

  2. Women who act like men, basically. Jshomi from TOS is very masculine (but I like her that way), and even Pasha from CSH is emasculated...

  3. Technically, would that be pro-masculating them or something? I've always thought emasculation means making something less masculine.

  4. Ah, the antihero. Riddle me this: in our postmodern age, is not the antihero the true hero? The man or woman of foibles, of conflicts, of imperfection? Whereas the hero is nothing but a gathering-point of virtues, a completely transparent model of ideals, the righteous example set up explicitly to be positively identified.

    Although my grasp of literary theory is tenebrous, I'm very tempted to believe that "heroes" exist only in mythology, whereas antiheroes are the true heroes of literature. Which means that, from time to time, I'm a composer of myths...